ALLAH swt Qur'an me surah-Al isra verse no-23-24 me farmate hai..... '' Aur Tumhare rab ka ye farman k tum uske siwa kisi aur ki ibadat na karna,Aur Maa, baap k sath Accha sulukh karna, tumhari maujudgi me Maa,Baap me se koi ek ya dono Budhape ko pohach jaye toh unhe '' Uff '' tak na kahna, na unhe jhidak k jawab dena unse ehteram se baat karna aur unke sath narmi se pesh aana aur unke liye Dua karna ''Aye ALLAH mere maa baap par rahem farma jis tarah unhone rahem dili aur mohabbat k sath mujhe bachpan me paala''... ISLAM ME OLD AGE HOME K LIYE KOI JAGAH NAHI...

A confession... Sometimes when I look back I just start crying and just cant stop my tears! Then I tell Myself , Allah(swt) loves you soo much thats why he turned you away from that lifestyle. He gave you the toufeeq to change your thinking, your goals, and everything. I know somethings from the past do hurt but that was all in Allah's(swt) Plan to Make you emotionally strong. And now that you have decided what you have to do be firm on it because the alternative is horrible and you will become miserable again. Allah(swt) loves you and NO ONE, NO ONE can love you more than HIM. Now seek knowledge of His deen in order to reform yourself and others. Ummah needs spiritual doctors and by helping others to become Closer to Allah(swt), YOU will actually help yourself reach the highest level in Jannah where you can be with Allah(swt) forever. Dont let your heart love anything/anyone except for Allah(swt). Protect Your heart from this evil Duniya who just wants to take you away from Allah (swt).This World is a barren dirty place...Dont let it enter your heart because it will destroy you and will take you away, astray from Allah Subhanahuta'alah like before.... Just be Firm and make Dua to Allah(swt) He is surely with You and will NEVER NEVER NEVER leave you Alone like others. ”Allahumma ya Muqallib al Quloob thabbit qalbi ‘alaa Deenik,” “O Turner of the hearts, make my heart firm upon Your Religion.” Ameen